Well, I had a great post scheduled for today. I have been writing it for over a week (it was supposed to go up last week, but with the rush on the 1 computer at my parents’ house, I did not get it done and posted). I am still going to post it sometime this week, but I just could not get into finishing it today.
You see, I am facing a crisis.
It is a personal crisis. One to which many people can NOT relate – especially women.
I have to go to a Christmas event tonight.
Most people would think this is a wonderfully fun thing. Most women love the idea of dressing up and going out for wine& appetizers, and hear a great key-note speaker. Most women would love the idea of going out to buy a new outfit for the event.
In case you have not figured it out – I am not most women.
I love my house. I love being in my house. I love working in my house. I love having people come to my house. I love caring for anyone who steps through my front door. But I don’t like to go OUT the door. I don’t like meeting new people. And I REALLY don’t like to go shopping.
So let’s look at the scoreboard for this event:
It is at my church – 1 pt for the event
Since we are relatively new at getting involved at the parish, I won’t know very many people. In fact I am only aware of 3 people there that I will know! – 1 pt for me.
This event is for women only. I have historically not had a lot of fun when it comes to groups of women. (That is a whole ‘nother post”). – 1 pt for me.
I really enjoy listening to the priest who will be giving the keynote address – 1 pt for the event.
This is an evening event where I know I need to wear something other than jeans or sweat pants. I own 1 pair of navy blue dress pants (dockers style), and one pair of dressy black pants which require 3.5 inch heels because they are so long, and one spring dress. I don’t particularly like to dress up. I have been told that it is a come as you are event, but it is at church, so I need to at least look a little nice. So I will dress up some. I don’t like to dress up. (If this had required me to go shopping, this would have been 100 points for me) – 1 pt for me.
Advent is a season of preparation and growth. This will be a growing experience for me. 1 pt for the event.
This requires me to leave my family for an evening – which includes missing snuggle time. – 1 pt for me.
This will help me establish some friendships and a support system within our “new” spiritual home. – 1 pt for the event.
So – when I add up the points is appears that it is a draw. I know the benefits will eventually outweigh the social anxiety I will feel. But getting that final push to get out the door is going to be an issue.
T -60 minutes….
Better get my make-up on.