I have a lot of things I could talk about today.
I could talk about how Hubby got a lot of his office organized. It looks awesome, by the way.
I could address that our Christmas tree is down and the rest of the decorations are gathered in one place, waiting to be packed neatly into boxes. I love the way the family room gets suddenly bigger, but I miss the soft glow of the twinkle lights and the warmth of all my handmade decorations made by my parents and friends.
I could shout from the rooftops my overwhelming joy that while we were putting things back into the closet where the holiday decorations vacation, we were putting the remainder of the miscellaneous boxes in the order we want to go through them during the rest of the winter when Hubby found the discs containing all the pictures from our trip to adopt our oldest. I thought those precious pictures were forever lost.
Instead I am going to talk about a different type of organizing and housekeeping. The interior, emotional kind.
Ellen over at FatGirlWearingThin has started a challenge called the Hate Loss challenge. I have joined this challenge because the only way that I am going to be able to continue to clean up and organize my physical house is to clean up my emotional/spiritual house. I am constantly amazed at how one plays right into the other. The more I learn to like myself, to accept who I am, and honestly look at the things that are good and the things that need to be tweaked a bit, the better I am able to cope with the stresses from the outside – I am able to let go of the unimportant stuff in my house and create a place of comfort for my family.
I find the best way to work on that interior side to be dispassionate and honest. I do have some things that need a lot of work, but I also have some really great things about myself as well. I am overweight – but I still have twinkling blue eyes. I may not be able to keep up with my girls because I am so deconditioned – but I have the ability to create a plan to correct that situation and one day I will be able to participate in more of their physical activities. My goal, my plan to defeat that little voice inside me that is quick to point out the bad about myself, is to counter each negative thought with something good about myself. Eventually the positive WILL sound out louder than the negative. Eventually I will be able to not cut myself to emotional shreds when I look at other people.
So here it to getting rid of the emotional trash in my life. Is there anyone else who would like to join me?